Weigh in tonight was not what i was hoping for, i had had a good week up until the weekend and by that point had only had 40 syns so i had a good 60 syns left for the rest of the week, so i had a day at mums with a nice roast sw friendly few syns for gravy, 2 g&ts 2 glasses of wine a small bit of cake an some Bombay mix and Japanese rice crackers. id used up my 60 syns with all of that i thought so didnt have any syns appart from a little peanut butter with apples yesterday because ive been feeling so down and upset at the mo!
so with that in mind i only lost 1/2 lb this week which im a little annoyed with but nothing i cant recover, im just a little annoyed at my slimming world consultant she seemed to pick on me tonight because id only lost that but other weeks normaly a loss is a loss,She then asked if i wanted to try another plan and to talk to her after class, went for a chat and she just didnt seem to want to have a chat or have any time for me really. Im a little bit upset and disheartened but im also having a bad week, really want to get back on plan and losing good amounts of weight. Am going to try success express but am finding it way to expensive at the moment.
Its so hard with a small family and a low income to stick to plan the way i would like to and its getting me so upset and down, I want to do this so bad and do not want to go back to where i started! Ive only just started to feel good about myself and the way im looking and don't want to go back to feeling the way i did 18 odd weeks ago!!
I have a young family i want to get fit and healthy for.
Tonight after group i had a melt down at home and did cry, i think everyone needs it every now and again, were only human and these things are hard.
This is a change of life, a new life style but it is hard! Im on a hard and long journey but im doing it to become a better healthier happier mummy and wife for my family, my world !
XX Msleesha1 XX